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Moodboard

“Think of my moodboard as a scrapbook filled with little pieces of me gathered over time. A peek inside my artist’s sketchbook and my writer’s journal. Creativity in the raw.” - AJ Schultz

Conundrum.

My close friend Chuck was recently moved into hospice care as he neared the end of his battle with glioblastoma. People take turns bringing meals to his family and offering other kinds of support, because that’s what friends do.

I believe humans are genetically driven to create meaningful connections with other people, then stick with them (and they with us) in times of trouble. A friend is not just a random tree in a forest. Friends’ roots become intertwined as they pass through the seasons together. When a friend needs us, it’s a no-brainer. We help.

But when a group, culture, or population is in trouble — at the scale of the Amazon rainforest, let’s say — it can be hard to see the tree for the forest.

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To comprehend a cry for help at a massive scale, we must engage our brains to understand root causes like trends, politics, history, resources, ecosystems, and injustices. We must confront enemies and uninformed friends. We must be willing to recognize our mistakes, whether in facts or perception, and adjust our actions accordingly. We must work hard and stay the course, even if there’s no end in sight.

Systemic problems are the opposite of no-brainers, and this is why most people don’t undertake them. It’s not that they don’t care. It’s that in order to make a difference, they can’t ONLY care.

My friend died on Thursday. He was full of great ideas, curiosity and artistic talent, things the world needs and his wife and son will so sorely miss. His medical team was terrific, and in that one way he was lucky, because healthcare as a system in the United States is neither healthy nor symbiotic. The sum is often less than the whole of its parts.

The day before my friend passed away, the 100,000th person in the U.S. died of COVID-19.

The U.S. has the greatest number of active coronavirus cases in the world; in fact, the country is closing in on having 1/3 of the total cases worldwide (as of today, our death toll has risen to 105,529). Yet city by city and state by state, people are digging in and taking sides, seemingly unable to adapt to a paradoxical world where we both reignite the economy and wear masks.

Tuesday, the day before that 100,000th person died, George Floyd suffocated to death under the knee of his arresting police officer.

George Floyd died because a white man was so mad on unchecked power, racism and adrenaline that he could not respond to very clear articulations of “I can’t breathe” and “I’m going to die.” Until George died.

As I say good-bye to my friend, hundreds of thousands of other people across the country are trying to figure out how to carry on without the person they loved. Their grief is amplified because they know all too well what’s happening to the forest and the trees.... not just what we can see above ground but deep below the surface. Can you feel it too? That unsteadiness in the earth below your feet is the crumbling of our collective roots.

There’s little doubt that 2020 will leave a lasting impact on our lives. But what will that impact be? Will 2020 be the year we fearfully retreat into a lifestyle of self-isolation? Or is this the year we turn down the volume of our curated newsfeeds, put our ears to the ground, and really listen?

The answer, I hope, is a no-brainer.

 

@barackobama on twitter, MAY 30, 2020

I want to share parts of the conversations I’ve had with friends over the past couple days about the footage of George Floyd dying face down on the street under the knee of a police officer in Minnesota.⁣ ⁣⁣

The first is an email from a middle-aged African American businessman.⁣ ⁣⁣

“Dude I gotta tell you the George Floyd incident in Minnesota hurt. I cried when I saw that video. It broke me down. The ‘knee on the neck’ is a metaphor for how the system so cavalierly holds black folks down, ignoring the cries for help. People don’t care. Truly tragic.”⁣ ⁣⁣

Another friend of mine used the powerful song that went viral from 12-year-old Keedron Bryant to describe the frustrations he was feeling.⁣ ⁣⁣

The circumstances of my friend and Keedron may be different, but their anguish is the same. It’s shared by me and millions of others.⁣ ⁣⁣

It’s natural to wish for life “to just get back to normal” as a pandemic and economic crisis upend everything around us. But we have to remember that for millions of Americans, being treated differently on account of race is tragically, painfully, maddeningly “normal” – whether it’s while dealing with the health care system, or interacting with the criminal justice system, or jogging down the street, or just watching birds in a park.⁣ ⁣⁣

This shouldn’t be “normal” in 2020 America. It can’t be “normal.” If we want our children to grow up in a nation that lives up to its highest ideals, we can and must be better.⁣ ⁣⁣

It will fall mainly on the officials of Minnesota to ensure that the circumstances surrounding George Floyd’s death are investigated thoroughly and that justice is ultimately done. But it falls on all of us, regardless of our race or station – including the majority of men and women in law enforcement who take pride in doing their tough job the right way, every day – to work together to create a “new normal” in which the legacy of bigotry and unequal treatment no longer infects our institutions or our hearts.

 
 

 
Amy Schultz